Spirit in the Sky

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I never know how to feel on days like today.

It’s almost too many emotions to pick apart and quantify.  I’ve always been good at quantitative analysis, so the fact that I don’t know how to explain my emotions on these days makes me almost as upset as the day itself.

  • I’m sad……but I’m not sure how sad I am, or how sad I’m supposed to be.
  • I’m nervous…….because I sometimes don’t want to talk about it when people ask, but how much of my feeling is nerves?
  • I’m jealous……of people who have their parents around, but don’t appreciate them.  Am I even supposed to be feeling that way?
  • I’m empathetic……..to the kids, many much younger than me, who’ve lost their parents.  This, more than the other emotions, has I think slowly taken up the bulk of my feelings on this day as time as passed.
  • I’m anxious……..about things in the future that I will need my Dad for, and he won’t be here when I need him.

 

This this what being an adult has come to?  If you open the door to death does it suddenly just swoop into your life and consume it?  I hope not, and most of the time I don’t think that at all!  However, in the past few weeks, it feels like death has circled around several of the people who’ve I’ve held very close during various phases of my life.  Two of my blood bank sisters now have to raise their children without loving fathers…..both taken far too young.  A high school acquaintance is left to raise a large family after her husband was taken.  A sudden death rocked not only Cornhusker nation, but the Main Squeeze’s family last week.  Sometimes, it just all feels like I don’t know what the world is coming to.

I live my life the way Dad wanted us to live in the “pre-death/post-cancer” life we as a family were handed, WE MOVE FORWARD!  We do everything we are supposed to do, and life as we had known it remained remarkably the same until it suddenly was not.

I guess in that way I watched my Dad fight cancer in much the same way he always wanted me to swim my competitive races.

Leave it all in the water, and if you can’t get out of the pool at the end, I’ll pull you out.”

I guess Dad just needed someone much bigger to pull him out when he was done with the race.

 

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So, I suppose I shall celebrate the day by working on some woodwork for my bedroom.  I might also get around to putting my “Fuck Cancer” sticker on the car.  I was once told I had earned the right to the sticker.  I’m not sure it’s a right I wanted to have earned, but I suppose there’s nothing to do now but embrace it.  Plus, “Fuck Cancer” is a true life statement!

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Weekend Fix #2 and Shopping

I received my second Stitch Fix box this week and thought I would fill you all in on the details!  I’m not sure I’m really going out my fixes in the right way. I find that most of the pieces I don’t like. This time all I requested was a motorcycle style jacket, and on that note my stylist did deliver.

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Very cute and real leather, I just have so many purses already that I don’t use.  Plus, I have a tassel purse already in maroon.

 

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I had been looking for a “cold shoulder” top for summer, but this one just wasn’t my style.

 

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This was listed as a “Lace Peplum”, however it fit just like a lace tank top.  I already have a navy blue lace peplum top that’s much fancier and more sophisticated than this.  This absolutely had to go back!

 

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I would have kept these jeans as they fit ok, but they were way too short for me.

 

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My moto jacket!  Love it!!  It’s a soft sweatshirt material which is perfect since I don’t really have many fall jackets.  This one was definitely a keeper!!!

 

I also rounded out my week with some more shopping!

I ordered one of the new split pans from Becca cosmetics and Jaclyn Hill in Amaretto/Prosecco Pop….it’s perfect for summer and I’m in love.  Along with the new makeup came a new highlighting brush and one of Urban Decay’s ozone lip liner pencils.  Oily skin often leads to bleeding lip colors.  I tried the ozone pencil with a dark lip today and it held up well even while eating Five Guys with Momma so it seems really promising!

My gym had there summertime sale and I picked up some comfy pieces on ultra discount!

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Love these comfy and soft long sleeves from Hard Tail.  This is my second one, and I snagged it for 60% off!  Ignore the stock photo, mine is in the washing machine!

 

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Cute little peplum style sweater.  It’s slightly big on me, and Momma rocks it.  She forgot it at my house, so you get a picture of it!

 

Momma and I took a lower key weekend to the home renovation projects, which left time for some extra shopping downtown!  Took a stroll through one of my favorite home decor/clothing stores.  Ideally, I would just like to move into that store, but they probably frown on that sort of thing.

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Snagged this gorgeous plaid shirt dress!  Is gonna go perfectly with my leather belt and buck and all of my boots.  Super comfy and swimming….my new love!

 

I also picked up a desk for the loft area upstairs, but pictures of that will come once I get the upstairs organized and put together a bit more.  Something to look forward to I guess!!

Waking Up Hangry!

I’m a big breakfast eater.  Some times I can get away with just coffee, but especially at work or days I’m going to have a late lunch after a workout…..I need a good breakfast to get me through.  But, I’m also SUPER LAZY in the morning and pretty much refuse to wake up any earlier than I absolutely have to!!

Enter……THE FROZEN BREAKFAST BURRITO!!! 

Fast, easy, customizable, and filling enough to get you through even your hangriest mornings.  Make them ahead and pull them out as you need them.  They are perfect!

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THINGS YOU NEED:

  • Tortillas
  • 2 Eggs per Tortilla
  • Splash of Milk or Cream
  • Cooking Spray or Butter
  • Meat–I’ve been loving Hot Italian Sausage….like you’d use on pizza.  Bacon….ham…..quinoa…..tofu…..DO WHAT YOU LIKE
  • Cheese
  • Onion
  • Bell Pepper
  • Salt and Pepper
  • Saran Wrap

 

Precook your meat of choice.  The Italian sausage crumbles as it cooks, but I would dice ham or bacon so that it’s easier to wrap up the finished burritos.  Some spicy, taco seasoned quinoa would also be good if you’re looking for a meat free option.  I just looked back and realized I’ve never posted my Mexican quinoa bowl recipe, so probably I’ll have to do that soon!!!  But, just follow the cooking directions on the quinoa, and dump in some taco seasonings….Cumin, Cayenne, Garlic, Chili Powder, Onion Powder…ya know, the usual…..or buy a pack of seasoning if that’s more your thing.

Dice the onion and bell pepper and throw into a large pan over medium heat with some butter to soften.  Whip the eggs with a splash of milk and salt and pepper to taste.  Pour the eggs into the pan and cook to a soft scramble.  This may take longer than you’d think depending on the amount of eggs you make…..just be warned.  Keep an eye on them though, as once they start to set it will go faster.

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Lay out each tortilla on a square of saran wrap.  Starting with the eggs, try and split an even amount into each tortilla.  Add in your meat of choice, and sprinkle with a bit of cheese.  By this time, it’s possible that your tortillas may have gotten a bit dry.  No worries, slide them onto a plate and simply microwave for 10-15 seconds.  Roll carefully, and then seal the roll with the saran wrap.

Once they are all stuffed, rolled, and wrapped….simply throw them in the freezer!  I was slightly worried that since they were warm the tortillas would get soggy and mushy, but they all came out perfectly!  Sometimes, if I planned even slightly ahead, I would pull one out and leave it in the fridge overnight to thaw.  I found that thawed burritos took 45-60 seconds to microwave.  I simply unwrapped them out of the saran wrap and set them on a plate or paper towel to microwave.

For the ultra lazy among us, a fully frozen burrito takes about 2-2.5 minutes to microwave, but flip it over half way through so that the bottom of the tortilla doesn’t get too soggy in the microwave!

I usually ate these at work, with my hands, just as they are.  But, if you have the option for a more plate and fork eating situation these would be great with the addition of some guacamole, salsa, and/or sour cream!!

Bon Appetit!

 

4th Fun

What’s a newly single Mishappenings supposed to do with herself!?  The answer is pretty simple……hang out with you’re ride or die friends and drink!  So, that’s basically what I’ve been doing…..and it’s been glorious.

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Homemade vodka lemonade with strawberry at the BBF’s……don’t mind if I do!!

 

We also managed to grill, teach her neice about the glories of explosives, and terrify all the dogs except the baby dachshund all in one fabulous afternoon!!

Sunday night brought stock car races in Nebraska. It was also the event that really cemented the fact that I had been dating a highschool girl for the past 7 months, but more on that later probably.

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When you’ve got all your money riding on that black and gold dream!

 

I also got to spend my first night in a camper and discovered that life is always better in the pit.

It was an amazingly successful holiday weekend that wouldn’t have at all been possible if I didn’t have the amazing friends that I do. I’m sure that I was slightly poutier than my usual self, but they understand that. Those are the best kind of friends to have!

Sometimes Life Just Hurts

I am hurt, I am heart broken, I’m exhausted, and I just need to regroup.

 

Times like these, you’re reminded who your real friends are. They are the ones who drive an hour to meet you for lunch because you’re too exhausted to go to the gym. The ones who text to make sure you aren’t sitting at home alone on a Friday night, and the ones who welcome you, spur of the moment, into their own plans with family and friends because your world came to a crashing halt. The family and friends who try to help salvage a ruined vacation, and who make sure you eat because they know you wouldn’t otherwise.

 

This weekend, while everyone is celebrating freedom and an extra day off work, I’m trying to recollect myself and celebrating my friends and family who have never, ever let me down.